After graduating from Pepperdine with a degree in Psychology and Mathematics as well as taking many classes in French, Computer Science and Religion, I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life. I felt like I wanted to do it all but everyone kept telling me that I had to choose one career that I would do for the rest of my life.
For me, the question, What do you want to be when you grow up? was never an easy one. When I was little I was convinced I was going to be a famous singer and actress but my mother would tell me that I was too smart to just be an actress so she encouraged me to go to college.
Freshman year of college, I decided I was going to be a neurologist to understand how we learn but then I wanted to study abroad more (I couldn’t do both without adding another year and I could barely afford Pepperdine for the four years).
While abroad my sophomore year, I learned about all the injustice against women in education so I wanted to become an education lawyer. Junior year, I took a genetics course that changed my life and promptly changed my mind again to want to be a genetic counselor.
Senior year, I yearned to be like the philosophers of the renaissance or of the enlightenment period like Pascal, Voltaire, Descartes, Galilei, Franklin or da Vinci. To be able to do a little of everything, would be a dream come true. However, my mother would always say “But who’s going to pay you for thinking?”. That’s when the idea of becoming a professor came about. I spent my whole senior year working on research projects but to no avail as I did not get accepted into grad school. I was devastated.
The summer after graduation was a daunting one because I had no direction. I somehow got a job at a law firm in downtown San Diego. I loved the perks so I decided to study for the LSAT at this time and give law school a try. After a couple months, I hated the work and I didn’t get into law school.
I then became a web developer. I worked for an education company. I loved the work but I hated being alone for so long. I needed human connection! I became an educational specialist. This was better because it was with people but there was no training provided to be able to help the clientele.
Once again dismayed, I went to craigslist to find a job. I became an after school teacher for only one hour a week. Within 3 months, I became the assistant manager of the branch. I loved this job because I did a little of everything. I spent time with students. I would teach the new teachers how to teach. I would work on code and curriculum. I handled the business duties. Though I enjoyed everything, I wasn’t being respected in this position. I did all the managerial duties without the recognition. That’s when I found out that only white males were being promoted to manager so I quit.
I decided to pursue a Master’s of Education in Instruction and Curriculum at the University of San Diego. It was a joint program to earn my credential as well. Being the overachiever that I am, I decided to get both the Multiple Subject and Single Subject in Math credentials, that way I would be able to teach any level. A week before the program started, one of the principals that I worked with in my previous position, offered me a job as a middle school computer science teacher. I was hesitant but I took it.
Being a middle school teacher was the best year of my life. If a teacher doesn’t take the time to know their students, it’s a real shame because middle school students especially have so much to offer as they are in the middle of everything. The insight they have is incredible. They question everything which is what everyone needs to do.
I really loved this job and I probably would have stayed here for a long time but God had other plans…
To get your teaching credential, you need to pass the CalTPA and since I didn’t have a master teacher because I never did student teaching, because I was offered this job, I didn’t pass it as I was teaching middle school not elementary for my multiple subject and I was teaching computer science not math for my single subject credential. Once again, I was devastated.
I fell into a deep depression. About six months later, I decided to apply to grad school again. This time in Education Policy, Reform and Evaluation since I learned about all the things that needed to change in the education system. I only applied to one school: Claremont Graduate University.
I got accepted!
During orientation, the speaker discussed how CGU strives to motivate students to become purple squirrels which is a metaphor for being a little of everything. I had finally found a place with similar ideals to mine!
I finished all 72 units in a year and a half but then I was burnt out. Corona hit. My wedding was cancelled with a two day notice. I was devastated.
I still had to work on my qualifying exams but I had no motivation. Instead, I listened to my high school teacher who once told me to just follow my passions and the money will follow. I started to learn about the energy that we harbor. I learned more about God and the Universe. I started meditating. I started working on my chakras.
I am in a much better place now. I feel like I am philosopher. I created this site to be able to share my ideas, just like a philosopher use to print out pamphlets and hand them out in the street. I am exactly where God wants me to be but I needed to go through all those ups and downs in my professional life in order to get to this point. I had to just trust the process and now I’m here.
Future plans include becoming an author, a professor, and an entrepreneur.
If you had a similar experience, I would love to hear about it or if you have any questions about my journey I would love to answer it!
Check these out for more!